In 2010, he took his last breath. Adam was my 24 year old brother who I watched deteriorate from his Cancer-ridden body in such a short period of time. It was in that moment that I knew something had to give in my own life. I share about this moment candidly in my story Lost & Found that’s housed inside SHINE! Dream Big, Fear Less & Blaze Your Own Trail.
While I believe that our whole lives are a journey to return to ourselves… who we are at the core of our being… I share this moment with you because it was a significant turning point for me where I knew SOMETHING… ANYTHING… had to change!
Have you ever looked at your life and thought,
“What the HELL am I doing?! How did I get here?!”
Well, that was exactly where I was. I began looking at literally everything in my life differently. My heart and mind began to open to new ways that I could improve my life and to a new circle of friends who would help me through it.
Truth? It didn’t happen over night. Anyone who tells you that an awakening is an arrival is sadly, mistaken. Awakening is a continual journey that isn’t all sunshine and roses! However I was determined, and still am, to live my best life. So, I focused my energy on what I COULD do, rather than what I couldn’t.
Even with the abundance of new positive changes in my life, I found myself overwhelmed.
I was wearing my masks well. Armed with this ever-expanding knowledge, I was still a wife, a mom of soon-to-be 6 children at the time (one of whom was very ill), homeschooling, living with chronic pain and health issues… the list contributing to my stressful life went on. When would I have time to find myself?! The guilt set in and the what-ifs of a life I wish I had done differently. Looking back, I was completely in victim mode, not fully understanding the control, power, and choices I had over my whole life. Not realizing that it’s NEVER to late to begin again. See… you can have all the knowledge and skills in the world, but if you don’t use them or understand the power of them, you’re no better off than not having them at all.
I could no longer keep my journey a secret. People began asking,
“How do you do it?”
There isn’t just one thing. There never was.
There isn’t even a collection of things that has remained unchanging from the get go.
I’m not even sure that there was a definitive moment that I “GOT IT”. It could have been my own health, my grandparents and brother’s passing, my daughters illness and her healing from it. It could have been realizing I had intuitive gifts that had stayed buried for so long. It could have been the overwhelming stress of being a large-family mom. It could have been when I received my Reiki attunements. Honestly, I feel like it has been years of realizations coming together to jolt me awake, SCREAMING…
You have the power within you!!
Look… stepping out onto your spiritual path can be overwhelming. You feel your life is already overwhelming to begin with. Your circle of support turns out to be anything but, or maybe it’s non-existent…
Take my hand and know you’re not alone in life. If you’ll allow me the pleasure, I would love to share with you how YOU can welcome ease, flow, & simplicity to your life… How you can merge your spiritual journey with the human experiences you were meant to live… Ultimately allowing you to live with less stress and more JOY!